I’m So Over It

Honestly, I’m really tired of all the distractions. That’s it. That’s the mood. Last night I closed my eyes and I sat in silence and I realized how exhausted I am from all the voices I allow into my life. From social media influence to television to the constant intake of information… I’m so over it. Seriously.

Close your eyes. Give yourself some space, some quiet, some margin and let there be silence. Take deep breaths... Quiet your thoughts... Turn off the clock, the productivity bell inside your head and be still for a moment.

As I let silence fill the space around me, I start to realize how simple things really are. I begin to see the artificial sides that the world offers and I don't want any of it. I'm really tired of letting random hacks, tips, tricks and opinions into my life and mind. There are a thousand different routines and ways to wash your face, do your hair, dress and make your home better. There are a million goals out there, ways to pursue the perfect life, perfect career or even those saying you can quit all of it and find meaning. Honey, no. I’m over it.

I'm on my own unknown path right now and it's going to take a little carving and routing outside of anything else. So I need a little silence.

And it's amazing because silence is really cleansing. It’s like drinking fresh, clear, clean water. Silence renews me in ways noise, clutter and the constant intake of information does not. Don’t get me wrong. I like productivity. I like knowledge. I appreciate wisdom and sound advice. I like to make the most of every minute, but that tendency can really overload and overwhelm me. It doesn't mean I am doing away with podcasts, books and information. It just means I'm not going to let them fill every single moment of my life.

There's an art in being selective.

There's a precision of contentment that comes with margin and silence between things. And it isn't just about social media, podcasts and even music (even when all of these things are good, encouraging, etc.) - it's about letting God speak into my life more than any other voice. It's about processing my life with Him and truly letting Him be the Lord of my life. That takes space. That takes time. It takes intentionality, because I'm really gifted in making sure every second of my day is filled with something. I'm not so good at sitting in quiet without my phone, without the television or social media or even a book.

So, I'm gifting my days more silence. Silence in the morning when my mind is still waking up. Silence even from commentaries before my devotional time with God. Silence and prayer and walks and less t.v. and less other things.

I'm going on a journey to pursue silence and simplicity once more. It's funny how you come full circle and end up where you started in different ways. I'm getting back to the basics once again.

Life can be really simple. It doesn't have to be entirely complicated. Give me a .50 cent composition notebook and that BIC pen that seems to never run out of ink. Give me that giant Palmer’s Cocoa Butter stick because it makes my lips feel like I kissed a cloud. Give me time and margin and space.

Give me silence. Give me Jesus.