You're Stronger Than You Think

At the end of the day you have to tell yourself that you’re a lot stronger than you think. You also have to tell yourself that you have decisions to make. Because it’s up to you to choose the life you want to live. 

I can have a tendency to think that the card I get dealt is the card I get. Not in a bad way, just in a passive way. Is passive bad? Possibly, haha. One thing I’ve learned is that I have more of a say than I’ve taken advantage of at times. By just accepting certain things, I lose track of my creativity. I stop blending colors and throwing paint in the fire just to see what happens. 

I’m realizing a new area of intentionality in my day to day. I don’t have to accept certain things. I don’t have to always be okay with what’s expected and the current color I’m painting the wall doesn’t have to be the final choice. I can choose a new color tomorrow. I can pour hot water in the snow to melt it away. I can take a break and build a treasure chest for a friend just because I want to learn how.

Maybe at some point I held people’s opinions too high. Or I thought “authoritative figures” should never be questioned because they just knew. Or I thought that I wasn’t being affected as much as I really was. Or I simply accepted things too quickly and didn’t really ask myself what I thought. All reasons aside, that isn’t who I am today. 

I feel like I’m standing in the middle of a plain room and I’ve covered the old standard carpet in plastic wrap while I hold a bright turquoise paint brush in my hand. At first I accepted the room for the beige carpet and bland white walls. I thought it was simple and low maintenance to accept it for what it was. But now I’m carrying supplies in to start painting and it feels really good. I’m even wondering if I want to knock out a wall or two just to make more room.

I might make the room into a wood shop just for the sake of sawdust and newspaper cuttings. I’ll probably pull out the carpet and never stop painting the walls random colors. I could even make a little nook for a fireplace and add a desk by the window for day dreams and ponderings. At some point, I could extend the window into a little deck and build a ladder leading up to the rooftop where I could have a garden and quiet, hidden nooks all throughout. By the way, the garden would only be half dying because I really am getting better with keeping my plants alive.

All I’m saying is look up after your big exhausting day. You can have the life you want. You can build the fire, craft the story, choreograph the dance, and capture the moment on camera. You can be part of a masterful work of art or come up with an incredible new theory. I mean honestly, will someone please make Pluto a planet again? No? Too late, too soon? — Don’t accept the world for what it is if you see something that could be better. You have something to contribute.

What do your choices say about your story? How are you choosing your life today? Do you realize that you’re stronger than you think? Did you know that you have decisions to make?

It’s easy to be passive and just accept a room for what it currently is. It’s harder to start shopping colors and fabrics that could transform it into something you might like more. You’re stronger than you think, more creative, adventurous and daring. You have a story and something to say. You have preferences. You’re good, and you have what it takes.